More Music That Makes Me Cry

You can tell I've been in a "worshipful-mood" lately as there have been so many songs that have touched my heart. This one was recommended by Kristi K. and it really spoke to me. Sometimes the lyrics of a song can touch deep down in your soul, so much that it can be healing.

The chorus is really powerful as a grieving mom and I think the words that made me cry the hardest were,

We know the pain reminds this heart
That this is not, this is not our home,
It's not our home.

What if my greatest disappointments
Or the aching of this life
Is the revealing of a greater thirst this world can’t satisfy
And what if trials of this life
The rain, the storms, the hardest nights
Are your mercies in disguise

 And that's what I've been thinking about over the past few days. I recently told someone that I've always looked forward to heaven, but I wasn't really "ready". But after losing our two precious babies I feel ready for heaven. I'm past that stage in life where I don't want to die because there are things on this earth that I want to experience first. Sure, I want to see my boys grow up, accept Christ as their Savior, see them become young men in the Lord, get married, have children of their own, watch them minister in whatever occupation they are in. I want to continue in ministry with my husband in our neighborhood, in our church, in our family, in our youth ministry. I want to experience all those things...but not as much as I want heaven.

I also think of others who are experiencing pain: friends from Mommies with Hope, Christians who are being persecuted, missionaries spreading the Gospel to unreached people-groups, those who are grieving, those who are dealing with illness (Joanne), those who are suffering in their sin, and many more. A lot of times I don't see the pain as mercy in disguise. I'm more apt to cry out in anger, disappointment, fear and I question the promises that God gives us in His Word. I need music like this to remind me that the aching points us toward heaven; it spurs us on to the day of Christ's return. That we need to rejoice that this suffering is only for a "little while" while we wait for our eternal and perfect Home.

Laura Story - "Blessings" Lyrics

We pray for blessings
We pray for peace
Comfort for family, protection while we sleep
We pray for healing, for prosperity
We pray for Your mighty hand to ease our suffering
All the while, You hear each spoken need
Yet love us way too much to give us lesser things

‘Cause what if your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears
What if a thousand sleepless nights
Are what it takes to know You’re near
What if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise

We pray for wisdom
Your voice to hear
And we cry in anger when we cannot feel You near
We doubt Your goodness, we doubt Your love
As if every promise from Your Word is not enough
All the while, You hear each desperate plea
And long that we'd have faith to believe

‘Cause what if your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears
What if a thousand sleepless nights
Are what it takes to know You’re near
And what if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise

When friends betray us
When darkness seems to win
We know the pain reminds this heart
That this is not, this is not our home,
It's not our home

‘Cause what if your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears
And what if a thousand sleepless nights
Are what it takes to know You’re near
What if my greatest disappointments
Or the aching of this life
Is the revealing of a greater thirst this world can’t satisfy
And what if trials of this life
The rain, the storms, the hardest nights
Are your mercies in disguise

 Are there any songs you've heard lately that have been healing?